{"id":626,"date":"2010-08-06T14:09:28","date_gmt":"2010-08-06T14:09:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.com\/?p=626"},"modified":"2010-08-06T14:11:03","modified_gmt":"2010-08-06T14:11:03","slug":"turning-my-life-into-what-i-want-it-to-be","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/?p=626","title":{"rendered":"Turning my life into what I want it to be"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Right now my life is full. Full of the running of a household, looking after 3 children, building up my editing and consulting business, blogging, the mundanities of domesticity. I know that I could very easily \u2013 and will very easily, if I don\u2019t watch out \u2013 continue along this path. But at the end of it all, I think I would look back, with a wistful sense that I have failed to fulfill my potential. Is this how I see my life? Is this the life that I want to live \u2013 well no, not really.<\/p>\n

You see, I have big dreams and big plans for myself. I haven\u2019t achieved these dreams yet \u2013 because they are scary and, I suspect also because I am waiting for a big chunk of empty time to be able to create. Reading Julia Cameron\u2019s book \u2018The Right to Write<\/em>\u2019 has made me realize that those sabbatical months are just never going to happen in my life. If I don\u2019t pull myself together and just get on with it I am never going to get to where I want to end up.<\/p>\n

Which is where exactly? Well, I really do think that I want to write and be published in some shape or form.\u00a0\u00a0For a while I thought that all I needed to do was simplify my life, get rid of the clutter and then the creative juices would flow and the time would be available to create. To some extent this is true, but I see now that there are always more than enough little things to fill in the time \u2013 I could clean out cupboards till the cows come home and I would still never be finished. What I need to do \u2013 again according to Julia \u2013 is snatch 15 minutes here and there and actually DO whatever it is I want to be doing. I don\u2019t have to earn points for good behaviour, get all the work done and then maybe, if I\u2019m very lucky, and I\u2019m not interrupted with a phone call, there are 5 exhausted minutes left over for me. No, I have to make this a priority and actually make the life that I want to have. I will never be a writer unless I actually write \u2013 so there it is, and that is what I\u2019m going to do!<\/p>\n

I\u2019m trying not to think at all about the big picture. I don\u2019t need to work on the plot (currently non-existent) of the wonderful novel I\u2019m going to write \u2013 I just need to write \u2013 to get into the habit, to get the creative juices flowing. The last six months of blogging have shown me that there are things in my head that I want to share and that writing daily – even if it’s only a blog post \u00a0– is eminently do-able. And I see that as I ramble on, things start to clear in my head \u2013 and I see that I really enjoy it! \u00a0The ironing (currently sitting in a mountainous pile behind me) isn\u2019t going to get done right now, but when I do get as far as doing it, I am certainly going to do it in a very different frame of mind than I would have if I had done it before anything else.<\/p>\n

I’ll keep you posted as to how I get on – if at all – but I have the feeling that telling you out there about my dreams may just kick-start me into action!<\/p>\n

Helen<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Right now my life is full. Full of the running of a household, looking after 3 children, building up my editing and consulting business, blogging, the mundanities of domesticity. I know that I could very easily \u2013 and will very easily, if I don\u2019t watch out \u2013 continue along this path. But at the end […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pQtrc-a6","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/626"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=626"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/626\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":629,"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/626\/revisions\/629"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=626"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=626"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.runquiltknitwrite.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=626"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}