Today I seem to have slowed down and come to a stop. I don’t know if it’s a post-flu thing or whether my whole body is just bamboozled by the totally out of season spring weather. Whatever it is, I seem to have just slowed to a point where I just want to sit, enjoy the sun and do nothing at all – apart from baking the two cakes that my son needs to take to school tomorrow.

This is so out of character that I’m a bit bemused by it. Normally I have a zillion things to do and a zillion more planned in my head. I don’t stop from morning till evening and I’m always productive. Today I sort of feel as though my head isn’t my own – having written that, now I’m really thinking that it must be the effect of the flu.

Anyway,  the house is more or less clean – I’m still totally enjoying the bits that have been really cleared out – and apart from the cakes and some taxi service in an hour or so, there’s nothing urgent that has to be done. So I guess just for once I really can stop.

I’m just sitting in my little office/sewing room – which seems airy and tidy and clean (lovely!) – with the window half open (extraordinary in February) and breathing. Nothing more than breathing. Very consciously. Big breaths of crisp fresh spring air. And I’m listening to the sounds of the neighbourhood outside my window, which normally just pass me by.

I don’t want to do anything at all. The thought of a new project seems a bit overwhelming and at the same time it feels so nice that the UFos are under control and I don’t have piles of half-made things all over the place. It’s nice to look at the orderly piles of fabric in my stash, but I have no urge at all to pull stuff out and embark on something new. It can all stay where it is…tidily…

I’m just enjoying how it is this afternoon. Which all feels a little strange and out of character.

But I don’t seem to have the energy to do anything else – not even socks…

Until tomorrow then, by which time I imagine normal service will have resumed!

Helen

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