The end of the dream….for the moment at least
So. That’s it. It’s over. For this year at least.
I had my MRI yesterday and there is visible muscle damage and fluid on the muscle on my hip. I have to see my doctor tomorrow for a final diagnosis, but the writing is on the wall. No marathon this year for Helen 🙁
It’s frustrating after all the training I’ve done over the summer – but I’m consoling myself with the fact that they were, on the whole, lovely runs in the woods and I felt happy and strong and enjoyed them. I also learned to run alone and know now what I didn’t know before – that it’s Ok, I have the discipline to get out there even if there is nobody to go with.
The other good news is that my actual hip joint is in good shape. Muscle will heal, a wearing out hip joint probably wouldn’t.
In other words it’s frustrating, but it’s not the end of the world….although I’m also not getting any younger 🙂
So another time…maybe. Or maybe that will just end up being one of life’s little dreams that we have to accept will never be achieved. Acknowledge it and let it go….but not quite yet….
Right now it’s frustrating not being able to hit the trails. I’ve got used to all the endorphins flowing through my body and substituting scrubbing the life out of the house just doesn’t quite cut it for me. But I’ll be back. Slowly at first, and it might take a few weeks, but I’ll be back…
Helen
September 20th, 2011 at 5:32 pm
I am really sorry to hear this, Helen – I know how much you wanted to do the marathon, never mind all the running daily. It is SO frustrating when the body doesn’t keep up with the dreams, isn’t it. Hopefully you will get some physio or a gentle exercise plan after you see the consultant. It is just wonderful, though, that there is no damage to the joint. Silver linings!
September 20th, 2011 at 5:38 pm
Oh I`m so sorry Helen. How gutting for you. You are being so brave about it too. So positive. I was looking forward to cheering you on virtually. Next year perhaps. Good to know the hip will heal.
September 20th, 2011 at 7:41 pm
I’m so sorry for you Helen. I know what it is like to train for something and then get hurt. Been there, done that, too. Luckily it is not too serious and will heal with time and patience. When you are ready to run another marathon maybe Annabella and I will come and cheer you on! Now that would be a kick, wouldn’t it?
September 20th, 2011 at 8:22 pm
Very annoying! At least you didn’t have to wait for the NHS to come up with a diagnosis, you would still be waiting!
September 21st, 2011 at 12:07 am
I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis Helen. I hope things will mend themselves in no time.
September 21st, 2011 at 1:30 am
I’m so sorry to hear that you’ll have to sit out the marathon after all your hard work. Hopefully your muscles heal quickly!
September 21st, 2011 at 6:11 am
Sorry to hear, but glad that it will mend. A winter spent knitting, sewing, healing and…
… Scrubbing the life out of your house?! I’d just turn to chocolate myself!
September 21st, 2011 at 6:09 pm
Big ‘get well’ and ‘sorry to hear that news’ hug from France. There’s always next year, but don’t push it. You achieve so much already in all the other areas of your life.